I am so thankful today is over. I’m exhausted and my joints hurt. I ended up going to pick up some Glucosamine after work at Target in hopes it will help. Yay for working on hard floors all day long. -_-
Tonight, I figured I would write about being an introvert. I was discussing being an introvert with my other introverted friend at work. Ever talk with someone and just connect with them based off of their personality? That is how her and I click. I explained to her that being an introvert, I feel like I only have a limited amount of gas in my tank.
Honestly, if I wake up with a half tank then I am doing good. On this gas, I need to be able to reach certain basic goals to get through the day efficiently. Even the simplest tasks can feel really exhausting. When I wake up, it is very hard to get out of bed. You may think this is normal but in fact, if I did not have anything to do then I may not get out of bed all day. I’m tired and the thought of socializing feels more draining than I can explain. When I go to work and have to over socialize, deal with drama, or am feeling depressed…. my tank quickly drops to:
This is a really bad situation because I have hit the point where I have nothing left. And yet, I still have to drive home, spend time with my boyfriend, eat dinner, feed the pets, do laundry, clean the house some, take a shower, and finally get in bed. Some days after work I am literally on the brink of having a mental breakdown. I am not sure if I want to scream or cry. Ideally, I would like to curl into a ball and disapear.
My boyfriend is very extroverted. When he is fully awake he has a full tank and is ready to go. He is full of jokes while over flowering with energy at the same time. Big crowds do not exhaust him in the way they do me. You will not find him off in the corner biting his nails as you will me at any kind of social gathering. Granted he does take time to relax. But overall, he stays close to this:
This is a level I have never reached and I cannot help but wonder what it must be like. I wish I wanted to dance randomly during the day and do more physical activity in general. It would be nice to not always want to be alone. This is something I actually have been working on. I continue to prefer just hanging out with 1-2 people at a time though. Groups will never be my thing.
My comfort zone is staying in the house, reading a book, making coffee, crafting, or watching the ID Crime channel on TV. In my ideal world, my house would over all be quiet, everything would be extremely clean, and my surroundings would be organized. I function the best in an organized environment. This drives my boyfriend crazy as he likes to live in a house that looks “lived in.” I think we will both have to compromise and come to a happy medium some how.
I decided to use gas tank pictures in this blog because these pictures most accurately describes what it feels like to be introverted vs. extroverted. I hope that you can relate to this post! I do not think anything is wrong with being extroverted or introverted. We are all created differently. More importantly, it is important to UNDERSTAND these two personality types. It will help you relate to your friends, family, or significant other better. It will also help you become more open minded and judge people less. I feel that what is “expected” of people socially is to be extroverted. I wish there was more awareness for what it is like to be introverted. Someone with this personality type can make others extremely uncomfortable or offended based off of how they respond to things. Introverts often do not like invites, answering phones, answering the door, introducing themselves in class, extra curricular activities, etc. They are guarded and often quiet people that are very selective on who they let into their world. If an introvert trusts you please understand that this is a big deal. It takes a lot of energy for that person to do this and you are clearly someone special for them to take that action.
I am going to end here tonight. Have a wonderful night!
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